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Let me soothe my wounds

TW: suicide, abuse, stalking mentions
It's time to take a break.

To be loved, to be loved

What more could you ask for? (I still love About a Girl by The Academy Is...)

No free lunched NSFW

Reflections on submission(/dominance) and its relationship with codependency.

"Concentrate..."

Thoughts about focusing on tasks, and escaping the magnetic pull of distraction by keeping track of the thoughts that would otherwise be left behind.

Daily HelloTalk Blog Day 3

My third regular Japanese blog on HelloTalk. Talking about contests on Leetcode and similar things.

Daily HelloTalk Blog Day 2

My second regular Japanese blog on HelloTalk. Talking about how to learn Japanese and what to do about Flashcards.

Daily HelloTalk Blog Day 1

My first regular Japanese blog on HelloTalk. Talking about interviewing and resume stuff.

On my father

A summary of my relationship with my father, to give background to those who haven't been part of this nightmarish scenario all along. CW: emotional abuse, narcissism.

Reflections on family

The letter to my family, which is as much a letter to myself to understand what I'm doing and why I'm doing it as it is one to my family to inform them of what's going on and to state my boundaries.

Advanced jobs

On empowering the Parts of Me, and in so doing, letting them merge into one, unified, True Me.

Maidabases NSFW

A summary of the problem I faced with Anki, in vore-and-maids format.

Bad Brain Time Survival Guide

How my brain glitches in bad situations, and how I'm working around it.

On choosing the form of one's dopamine lever

Let's get personal. And let's make it weird.
Talking about considering SRS, and feelings on different kinds of genitals, among other things.

Co-op partners

Complaining about being single... player mode.

Reflections on self-disgust

(cw: discussion of self-directed transphobia)
A follow-up to the Affection post from earlier this year. It's long!!

Android Girl Adventures: Overly Urp-timized NSFW

How a funky JVM optimization resulted in our Android girl belching a bunch instead of telling us what was going on, and failing her self-test accordingly.

Affection

Exploring my relationship to affection and love.

Thoughts on Reyas

Thinking about how my moods tend to cycle, and why.