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(Never-finished) Evaluating the contributing factors both positive and negative, direct and indirect, that culminated in a depressive episode in late May 2022.

(Unfinished NYE post) It's time for a New Year's summation sequence! Let's see what - and who - 2021 had to bring...

Thoughts on this year and friendship and romance and progress.

Another manga, this time volume 1 of The Ancient Magus' Bride at Ssubby's recommendation!

The first non-kink book of the year, and also the first manga of the year! A cute (but drama-heavy) lesbian romance!

That's right, keeping it going! This one's another size kink book, probably a steppy one if I know Miss Kaneda. Let's get into it!

Book #1 for 2022. Let's see if I can keep this up, shall we? This one's a size fetish book.

TW: suicide, abuse, stalking mentions
It's time to take a break.

What more could you ask for? (I still love About a Girl by The Academy Is...)

Reflections on submission(/dominance) and its relationship with codependency.

My first impression of the Major Arcana of the Triple Goddess Tarot.

Thoughts about focusing on tasks, and escaping the magnetic pull of distraction by keeping track of the thoughts that would otherwise be left behind.

My third regular Japanese blog on HelloTalk. Talking about contests on Leetcode and similar things.

My second regular Japanese blog on HelloTalk. Talking about how to learn Japanese and what to do about Flashcards.

My first regular Japanese blog on HelloTalk. Talking about interviewing and resume stuff.

New Year's Day and some sightseeing in Tokyo!

My first full day in Tokyo - and the end of a decade.

A summary of the days leading up to my first night in Tokyo for my research expedition!

A summary of my relationship with my father, to give background to those who haven't been part of this nightmarish scenario all along. CW: emotional abuse, narcissism.

The letter to my family, which is as much a letter to myself to understand what I'm doing and why I'm doing it as it is one to my family to inform them of what's going on and to state my boundaries.

Frequently asked questions as given to family and friends who knew little of trans matters and wanted to know more about Mari's gender transition.

On empowering the Parts of Me, and in so doing, letting them merge into one, unified, True Me.

A summary of the problem I faced with Anki, in vore-and-maids format.

How my brain glitches in bad situations, and how I'm working around it.

Let's get personal. And let's make it weird.
Talking about considering SRS, and feelings on different kinds of genitals, among other things.

Complaining about being single... player mode.

("My Japanese has leveled up!")

Thoughts on language learning through the lens of Metroidvanias with RPG elements.

(cw: discussion of self-directed transphobia)
A follow-up to the Affection post from earlier this year. It's long!!

How a funky JVM optimization resulted in our Android girl belching a bunch instead of telling us what was going on, and failing her self-test accordingly.

Exploring my relationship to affection and love.

Thinking about how my moods tend to cycle, and why.

My end-of-year celebration post for 2018.

A post encapsulating my excitement about having a new blog!